I am an Achiever. If you’ve ever taken the Enneagram personality test, then you might be familiar with the term. I’m what you’d call a Type 3. I’m success-oriented, driven, ambitious, and love to set goals just so I can crush them within a certain time frame. In short, I’m a workaholic. I revel in the fact I get to run my own business and watch it succeed. There’s not a single goal too big that I don’t feel like I can’t reach, and I’ve never really let myself down. Not a bad thing, right?
You see, in 2019 alone I worked for ten months straight (nearly every single day) without taking a break, without pausing to breathe, and without letting myself slow down for more than a day at a time. I couldn’t even tell you the last time I took a vacation. I was 100% committed to living up to my theme word of the year (elevate), and I wasn’t going to stop for anyone. Sound familiar?
But there’s a downside of loving the work you do so much it can actually become harmful. First, if I don’t feel productive every day I sit down at my laptop, I basically feel worthless, which messes with my moods and health. My self-worth becomes involved, the fear of failure digs in deep, and I start comparing myself to other authors. Second, I will run my body into the ground in order to accomplish my next goal because I literally can’t detach myself from my work. I’d much rather be at my desk working on my passion than being with my kids a lot of the time. Writing is an obsession I’ve relied on to help me through trauma, depression, and utilized to ease stress. It’s part of me.
It’s also the thing that’s hurting me the most. [Read more…]